nataprzbower-deactivated2018102 asked: How did you know you were trans? I'm nor sure if I am a trans boy, so your experience can be useful for me, and maybe another people. Thank you so much.

personally I knew I was trans when I found comfort in being called xenon and when people used he pronouns for me, I noticed that a flatter chest made me more comfortable, and when downstairs made me a bit uncomfortable, if you catch my drift. there’s lots more, but remember the experience is different for everyone. hope all works out well! -x

Anonymous asked: Hey :) I just wanted to ask if you knew what the process is for a person to get testosterone? (Sorry if you've been asked this before) xx

ah, I believe you need to see a gender therapist and from there you can get a doctors notice to get t, however I’m not too sure, and I have no experience on this. i’m sorry. if anyone knows, please feel free to chime in! -x

Anonymous asked: I am FtM and one day I'd like to go on t and get top surgery, but since I haven't come out to anybody it won't happen soon and I'm getting out of my teen years. My fears are that the older I get the less "results" I'll have. Is it true or did I make it up?

you made it up! top surgery won’t change as you get older, unless you bind a lot. also I don’t think you’re allowed to get top surgery until you’re legal, however I’m unsure about that, haha. -x

Anonymous asked: My spring break is next weekend, and my parents have booked a stay at Kalahari resort and water park. I love water parks, but wearing a swim suit gives me massive dysphoria. I'm not out to my family, and they would be extremely unsupportive if I came out. I want to be able to wear shorts and a shirt, but my parents would think it's odd, and wouldn't let me. I don't know what to do. I want to have fun but I don't want to feel like crap the entire time. What can I do?

I know the feeling:[ maybe try wearing a shirt over your bathing suit? say you don’t want to get too sunburnt? hope this helped a bit, and if any followers have any ideas, please share them! -x

crimsonfandomtrash asked: Hey, so, I'm on my period, and my cramps are really bad. Like, I can barely even type right now, bad. It's making my gender dysphoria worse, and I have no idea how to make it go away. Any advice?

advil/ibuprofen could help, as well as menstrual cramp meds(I think those are a thing, someone told me about them). as for dysphoria, I like to remind myself that this situation only makes me more of a man, a tougher one because we obviously have to deal with it, and it’s tough. hope this helped a bit:] -x 

Anonymous asked: hey, do you know of any binder give aways? im feeling really dysphoric about my chest but i dont have any money to buy a binder. any suggestions on what to do or if you know of any giveaways? thanks so much :)

unfortunately, I do not know of any, but you can search up binder give away on tumblr/twitter and you may be able to find one, or try your local lgbt friendly space, as they may be able to get one for you! if anyone knows any good give aways, please do share them! -x 

Anonymous asked: For the anon worried about getting more body hair: If you go on t, you'll probably end up with about the same body hair as your father and any amab siblings. But you can always get laser treatment to permanently get rid of it, or wax or shave it for a less permanent solution to it (waxing will mean it'll be gone a lot longer than shaving so you might wanna do that if you're not willing to commit to laser hair removal).

!!! thanks:]

Anonymous asked: Hi there Clearly I'm closeted, scared, and insecure for some reason. It's just my height that doesn't make me feel like a man enough. I'm short as you can see. Am I the only one that is short and trans? I don't know. It's killing me how everyone is going to see me as a short guy. I don't know what to do. I mean, I don't know how to overcome the feeling of insecurity. I'm short because of genetics and of course, I'm a woman in my body, which I'm necessarily short.

you’re certainly not the only short guy out there. sam Collins on youtube mentions how he’s short as well, he could be someone you may enjoy. however I hope you feel better soon, it’s totally normal to be a short guy, there are even cismen that are short:] -x 

Anonymous asked: I'm freaking out because I really want to bind but none of the homemade methods work without being painful. i'm not out to my parents (hell, I don't even know my gender) But I really need a way to get a binder or bind effectively from something homemade

sports bras with layered tshirts and then baggy clothes could work. however please don’t use ace bandages as theyre /very/ damaging, and please don’t use anything painful, and /please/ don’t bind for too long. -x

Anonymous asked: Hey so my mom said that she supports me and I came out five months ago as FTM but my mom never uses my name or pronouns and it makes me so mad and then she wonders why I'm pissed at her and if I tell her she will say that "it's gonna take some time." It has been five months!!! How do I tell her she needs to start trying to use my real name and pronouns??? Nothing I try is working.

it will take her some time for her to get used to it, however I think you need to sit down with her and have a serious conversation about how much the name and pronouns mean to you. hope all goes well. -x